Its again close to a year since my last post. Lots of things have happened in the meanwhile and post my trip to swiss life has taken a huge turn around. I am now a proud owner of a 2BHK apartment @ Chennai. I am eagerly looking forward to shifting there once it is ready for occupation. Responsibilities have increased as well. Got promoted @ work and more trips abroad are also lined up. While I feel happy about all the good things that has happened, It also saddens me to say that the increased responsibilities have stressed me out! I am not someone who crumbles under stress but I guess its natural that it happens to everyone @ some point of time. Worst, I haven't taken any measures to cope up with it either. Most of the times, it has just been going through the motions and a lack of willingness to come out of it. Could be due to the fact that the amount of things that I have on my plate is constantly keeping me on my toes and doesn't give me a recovery period. All these things keep playing on my mind and I would be the first one to accept that there are more important things in life that needs attention! First and foremost, the best character I attribute to myself is my positive attitude and cheerfulness! But Damn, I am now searching for them. This has not only affected me, but people close to me as well. I am sure they are annoyed at this and are wondering what has gone wrong with me, but frankly these are the same questions for which I myself need answers! I am often keeping my thoughts to myself these days and find myself in a sombre atmosphere most of the times. Looking back at how impatient I am these days, I just find that this sombre mindset could be one of the reasons. I am looking for a way to reinvent myself, getting back to the positive mindset, enjoying all the little moments, developing a lot of patience and most importantly enjoy life as it comes. I also take a lot of pride in making others happy! I have experienced that it gives you extreme happiness seeing someone happy because of what you did. People tend to look up to you when they are in need and it adds an additional dimension to ur personality. First and foremost what strikes me is the need to shed away the laziness and the next thing is to do things that infuse positive energy! I pray to god to give me the drive and motivation to do so and hope things will start looking better in the coming days. I would also like to take this post as an oppurtunity to apologize to all my near and dear ones for not being able to be the way that I usually am. I am sure it would have annoyed most of you, but I promise that I will be back to my cheerful best soon. Apart from these things, I am enjoying my experience at China currently and had a good time during my Birthday recently. I thank my friends here @ China and also people back home, who made it a memorable day! Looking forward to see you all soon and hopefully I can get things back on track @ the earliest! Till then Ciao!
